in a while time i going to work... recently i am stressed and depress... i don't noe wat happen to myself.. i may need to go for an consultant..

i went out with shu yi on thursday, met her at bugis and starting was quite okay... but then after we reach orchard... we start our shopping... then i sudden change of my mood... i don noe y i will like this... but i oli noe that my mind was oli thinking that im a burden to be her friend... i don noe y i kept thinking... y y y...

she suggested to go back home as i think she felt that i was annoyed and she ask me wheather is her fault or she has say the wrong word... no! it not ur fault at all... all is my fault.. my emotion break down... im sorry if i have hurt u... sorry

i need a long break.. i need a self-reflect.. PLS GIVE ME SOME TIMES.

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7:56 am

argghh... i reli can take it anymore!!! the class that i study was sux lahz.. i try to tok to the student over there then get rejected lorz.. it reli not the skool life that i want lorz.. even the mix blood that i have knew yesterday wanna defer to the next intake to join his friend.

so i follow him.. i call my in-charge and tell her i reli do not like the class environment and wanna take the next intake.. coz next intake i can study wif shu yi.. i was so thrilled.. but when i call shu yi and tell her the good news.. i hvae a strong feeling is telling me that she don feel like study with me.. so i keep on asking her that is she mind that i study the same class wif her.. but she say okay.. i reli feel that something is not right... nowaday i found out that actually something is wrong wif our friendship after we have some misunderstanding on our self-emotion arguement. i feel that we are getting farther and farther and thing seem to be getting haywire... i reli don noe wat will happen to us.

or maybe i was thinking too much.. as she is having some stressed in her skool work and family problem. but watever it is, we cant make a pulsive decision if we didn't noe the exact story...maybe we shouldn't study together coz she also noe her classmate as i think she will be in difficult position.

actually wanna call sylvia de.. coz she also want to study the same course too but in nov.. that mean she will probably in same class with shu yi too..coz shu yi also will start study the course in nov.. so i call sylvia lorz.. then we also can study together... maybe she can company me also ya.. coz she will be a new student too...


so i have decide to defer my study and we shall c wat is the next step.. coz of this my mum have another view of me le.. she say that i do not put much effort and no determination to study. i reli want to study hard and get good result...but when u r study u reli need a friend lorz...like doing project or discuss any revision together and u will feel comfortable in class and won't feel lonely also...


i was so stressed now and i really need time to calm down!!!

YYY
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10:40 pm

omg omg.... still working today from 9am-1pm then go skool... wah...cant stand it man... the skool was damn boring lorz.. guess wat those student i study wif is old student as they have gone through a professional cert which i no need to take as i am a direct diploma student.. since they r old student ,they have already knew each other le.. then surely will left out the new student lorz.. shag... so boring.. sianz.. teacher was so bad lorz.. majority win the vote to start skool at 1pm... wah liaoz.. shitty hell wat am i suppose to do.. tml still got work lorz.. all karen and she ask me to work 8.30am-12 pm... 3h30min earn wat sia.. shag!!!

finish skool at 5. then meet dar dar at bugis for dinner at fish & co. it was dar dar treat lorz.. then we go to bugis village walk walk... i bought a shirt for $15
after that actually want go home le... but we walk pass the movie ticket booth then we decide to catch a movie before we go home... then dar dar also can wait for his brother and go home together... we watch the show invasion..dar dar treat also.

while waiting for the movie to start in an hour time, we went to the arcade to find his bro as his bro is working there and we go catch doll again but no luck today.. then we play basketball,bishi bashi....

it really make me forget the hard work and the skool stress when i with him.. enjoy myself today vr much.. thank dar dar.

YYY
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11:51 pm

a week liaoz.. i nv use computer lehz.. coz too busy le... but today i want to blog coz it my 3rd brother in-law wedding ya... actually they are my cousin de.. coz my aunt "convert" me to her god-daughter. so i have 3 god-brother... they r having catering in their new home... actually wedding is alwis in the restaurant or wat de. but they prefer catering as most of the money has spend on their new home. actually it is not reli a low class wedding ya.. actually i think is good.. coz there is waitress to serve us too. some of them may think a grant wedding is a must..everyone will want to.. after i go to their wedding i realise actually my brother also has given a grant wedding to his wife although it oli just catering.. coz they actually do wat wedding culture do... but it end very fast.. i reach home at 3. so got time to blog and upload picture and the wedding card i draw for them^^ pls enjoy... before that wanna announce that tml is my first day of skool.. so wish me good luck and study hard...

YYY
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3:43 pm

haha.. just came back from power station... vr tired worz... but today i have a lot of fun man...

today shu yi call me and ask me wanna go to power station with her sister and sister bf (ivan). actually yesterday she ask me le then i reject.. but in the end she call me at night and ask me wanna go ma lorz... then i agree lorz.. coz my granny around 3am like that have an operation.. then i very scare lorz.. gom to c her around 7am. and we cant go in as she was under icu ward...just don wanna think so much..

when we reach power station shu yi sis bring us in as she is a member. then she order drink for us. she order 2 jar of belguim coke and we have 2 free drink of i forget wat name le but is mix with 7 up...

then we headed to rnb to dance... shu yi was so excited man.. coz she a rnb lover... going to dream land soon i was so tired...this is the photo we take...

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3:54 am

long time nv blog liaoz... coz have been busy working and ot every now and then... today is me and donavan 2 yr's anni...^^ this 2 year relationship reli take a long time to build up the passion, the love, care and concern, tolerance and it going to move on as recently we r having some problem but has already solve le...

now in his house to blog and his is sleeping now.. lol.. today nv do anything we eat grand dinner for today.. and he owe me an anni postpone outing!!! coz is 7th month so nv go out lorz... but still enjoy myself today...

another good news... our clara mama had just give birth to a baby gal... maybe tml going to c her in the morning...

bad news... =( my poor granny was admitted to hospital on thursday as still don noe the cause of her illness... still under observation.. hope she will be fine tml going to c her too in the evening with my cousin and my sis...

today shu yi call me ya... we have not meet up for several day as i was busy.. having a long chat with her... she brought me clara good news ya... and this friend of mine have been under stress... she have been stress for her study and family... and i reli cant do anything to help her as the oli thing i can do is to console her and make her happy.. she use to ba a happy and cheerful gal... but recently all the stress is making her mad.. reli hope she can put down all the thing n take thing easily then she will not be so frustrated and hate herself anymore... i am worry for her... hope thing is getting fine for her...

PS:
To my dar dar,

i will still trust you and hope you won't hurt me again and it really need take time to heal.. so pls give me some time... after today it reli make me feel better coz i noe that you really care n dote on me... i wil treasure the time with you and try to change my attitude... deeply in love with you...

YYY
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11:58 pm

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